Boring Semi-Update

Every time I write on here, I feel like I have to apologize for not writing for so long. Yeah, I'm doing it again. I actually began writing a post two times before, and both times something happened and the post went *POOF*! Nothing like losing a large amount of text to completely kill any shred of writing motivation.

If I knew a large amount of people read this, which they don't, mostly by my own choice so I can write with relative freedom, then I might feel obligated to update on the many happenings in my life, which I assure you, are not so exciting, but I don't.

I do feel obligated to re-write the couple of posts I began before, since they were fun blips in my life this winter. But now that so much time has past (one occurred at the end of NOVEMBER), a lot of the shine has faded away. Perhaps you can suffer through it anyway.

NYC continues to be such an interesting place to live. I continue to be in a state of agitation due to my impoverished state which prevents me from doing more things. At the same time, I feel this thankfulness for the chance to live here (for now), for the many opportunities it holds for fun and fascination. It's the simple fact that things happen here that just don't happen anywhere else that keeps my relationship with this place growing and warming.

I often reflect with both interest and bitterness upon the similarities and differences between my situation here and in Bangkok. In Bangkok I was flush -- money was rarely an issue, and though I faithfully paid off ALL my credit cards while there, I also made sure to play -- a lot. As my old posts attest to, a SWF in BKK is no easy life, and I combatted that my constant entertainment, basically, spending my money which gave me joy. I bought hundreds of dollars worth of books, I saw every movie that came out, I dined in all the expensive (and inexpensive) restaurants, and I traveled traveled traveled.

Yet, I'd still rather be here, and despite my lengthy struggle with anti-depressants and their wacked-out side effects, I am both happier here, and have a greater sense of peace. Does money buy happiness? Not in the general sense. But it sure does buy it in spurts and can help a shitty situation be tolerable, even enjoyable.

So, I don't have the cash here to see movies, which, due to the volume I saw them in in Bangkok, I have become a great lover of. I don't have the funds to fend off discontent or to take advantage of what the city has to offer (which is more than BKK). But, you take what you can get in penniless times, and as I will write about later, going to The Daily Show with Jon Stewert and "sneaking" my way onto the Law & Order set, are a couple of ways that makes life here pretty nifty.