Maybe, Probably Not

So, this past Wednesday was the day the last candidate was going to interview for that university job I've been dying dying DYING for. Although I'm glad I was the first one interviewed, it's tough having to wait 'til everyone's done!

Now that a couple of days have gone by, I'm a little nervous. Going off my own experiences at THIS university, what usually happens after a lengthy search is that they contact the person they really want IMMEDIATELY, and kinda let all the other finalists hang until their #1 pick actually signs on the dotted line (which can take a couple weeks) or eventually says, "No, thanks" after negotiations fail or there's a better offer elsewhere. I know I felt really great about this interview and all, and was secretly hoping that like Wednesday NIGHT they would be calling me, but now that that's not happened, I'm concerned. I at least hope I get my "You're a loser" letter via email rather than having to wait for it to come unexpectedly through the mail one day.

Although Beau and I have tried REALLY hard not to put too much hope in this potential job, and have only talked in quiet whispers of "well, IF we end up leaving Montana...," I know that privately, we've both really had our hearts on this, especially after the interview(s) seemed to go so well. And since this is the only job I've applied for, because I don't want to make the BIG move (*puke* again) to Missouri until either he or I get a job we really really want (and that will be a career, not some JOB job), it's not like there are any other prospects out there. I even stopped my daily "peruse the Missouri universities' job sites" habit. I visited them again for the first time this week, and even found a job at another university I think I'd enjoy. But there's a difference between "This might be a neat job" and "This is the type of job I really really want -- for life."

I hope I have some good news for y'all by at least the end of next week. This waiting sucks!